Here~

I mentioned posting pictures, didn't I?

Hi. I don't know how to wear a mask.

Hello, my name is WhiteDress, and I make funny faces while wearing masks and making everyone else feel awkward. Also, my dress is actually red. Would you like to be my friend?

I don't even.

Anywho, I have a lead on someone to replace Hanna becoming Chosen. Much better than who I have been considering, and I think WhiteSuit will be much happier this way. If it works out, I will be too.

Excuse me, I have some stalking to do.

Anywho.

Due to Doc's recent issues, I have had several discussions with the waifu about this.

First off, the Master is the one who ordered him to Choose Hanna yet again, if she were to email him. Lo and behold, she did.

Second, I talked to him and he said that he would make her a Reader if she were to be caught (I may have... Been a bit harsh about him with it; more of a "do it or else" from me).

Third, we are (or I am?) working on getting someone Chosen in Hanna's place. I would rather have a criminal in the Commune than have Hanna being... Well, dead by the Master's hands.

Fourth, I am now TAINT FREE!

... OF THE THEURGIC KIND~

This allows me to immerse myself in water and not go all Wicked Witch of the West on everyone. I'm also Immune now; all of this due to an... Antidote of sorts, only for specified Chosen to have. Sadly, I only received this because of how important I am to WhiteSuit... But I'll be grateful nonetheless that the Master gave me such an honor. Just grudgingly; I shouldn't complain, I'm fairly useless around here and have done nothing to deserve it. /wrist

Sixth or some odd number-th, because I am Immune, I can now learn Theurgy. I am taking up Ignitheurgy basics to learn how to control my power, but then I will move onto Tontheurgy and Opstheurgy (Sound and Electric Theurgy).

Also, I have brown hair now.

So many updates.

FUUUUUUU-

Fucking Isaac.

...

Perhaps I should delete this.

How Depressing.

I haven't updated this. I didn't feel the need to.

I made this so the others could check up on me and see I was okay. After Session, everything was great. There was no reason to update.

Though, now I realize that the people I made this for wouldn't care at this point how I feel...

I wonder if I made the right decision sometimes.

I shouldn't feel regret.

SECRET POLICE!!!

This fits fairly well.

OBVIOUSLY WE ARE THE SECRET POLICE.

Somehow I don't feel better--that was supposed to amuse me...

I have some things to talk about. What I alluded to before, about the Commune's old members...

They're all dead.

Feels abrupt and weird saying this in a blog post. Like I shouldn't talk about it. I know I don't really want to. I don't like thinking about it.

If Doc and I had been brought in even a bit earlier, we would have been killed.

Remember how HiveTree "noms" souls? It was an experiment done by the Commune. There was a vote between WhiteSuit, HiveTree, and MistHeart--the top three of the Commune. WhiteSuit voted against, HiveTree for... And so Mistheart voted for, to side with HiveTree.

When I last talked to her, she said she had regretted it.

The experiment allowed HiveTree to kill the Commune members and use their souls to create a... Death Veil. It surrounds him and he can control it.

Heartless bastard, indeed.

It was also right before I had been brought to the Commune. MistHeart said that if Doc and I had been brought in earlier, we probably would have been killed... Dear Timelord, I am so glad we escaped that fate. WhiteSuit, as said, hates talking about it. Understandable...

Though, despite that news, everything else here has been slow... Which is agonizing.

When nothing happens, I get bored. When I'm bored, I think. When I think for long periods of time, I worry. When I worry, I get stressed and think some more. Soon, I panic and question everything.

Recently, with how close I've been with WhiteSuit, and Session coming...

I suppose the best way to put it is that I have two people in my head arguing over whether this is right, and to really do this. Which is silly, I don't quite have a choice at this point... Two days.

Part of the debate I'm having is also generally about WhiteSuit. I've pushed it to the back of my mind, but he threatened to kill me two Sessions ago. That's not that long ago. What? Everything's dandy and fine, now? I can't just ignore that. If everyone's like that around Session, should I be hiding away?

Not really wanting to. Probably the biggest event in my life, right? Not like I do much with my life, so as sad as it is, it's true...

It feels horrible. Impending doom. And Impending doom feels lonely.

I'm just so worried.

Birthday.

I am now fifteen.

Don't feel much different.

I feel a bit bad for my family. Birthday and all. They haven't seen me since I ran off on my bike, looking terrified. That was just my family at my mum's house too. Haven't seen my dad and his fiancee in an even longer time...

On the bright side, I've gotten several people saying happy birthday to me!!! Vadiir, Doc, WhiteSuit...

Anyways, I'm sorry for not updating about the mission.

See, it went smoothly. Much more than I thought.

My husband is a badass.

Slightly? c:

Anyhow, the mission was to retrieve an artifact of some sort from Theurges. I honestly didn't know much about the mission details, but it was apparently important. I didn't quite understand why this was my first mission, either. WhiteSuit said that it may be to prove I was trustworthy? Skinnybitch himself decided it... Frankly, I wasn't of much use. If anything, probably in the way, seeing as WhiteSuit worried about me.

He irked me, though. I'm fairly sure he killed every single one of the Theurges we encountered. He had said he let the first boy go, but I didn't see how it ended. He told me to go onward. He then tried to sugarcoat the facts when it was obvious he killed another, later on. Saying something about not wanting me to see it...

This wife is not amused. I'm pretty sure he does that sort of thing quite often, too.

Yes, Mr. Butler, I am onto you.

There has also been something else I haven't regarded in these blog entries yet... The fact that the Commune here is so empty.

There were other Chosen here before--even a chef, but they're all gone now. I questioned WhiteSuit about it and he was very sullen, giving vague answers.

He, MistHeart, and HiveTree. The only ones left of a whole Commune, and WhiteSuit, someone who kills without much hesitation, didn't want to talk about it.

Of course I wasn't just going to nod my head and be okay with what little information he gave me. I found MistHeart and we had an... Awkward chat.

I'm not quite sure I want to post what the story was, here... At least... Not yet. Definitely not yet.

All I can say is that I'm so glad Doc and I evaded coming here for so long. So glad. I also don't quite like the sounds of HiveTree. I have yet to meet him, but he sounds frightening...

I also talked with WhiteSuit about The Cause and Utopia. It seems... When you go into Session, there's a contract of sorts. If you are ever to be free of the Master's control, you must Rebel? WhiteSuit said it was to show that humans can get right along without His help, without Him creating the Utopia...

I'm not sure what to think. I feel like I'm losing myself.

Normally I would have passed all of this off as rubbish, but listening to WhiteSuit talk about it... Gleam in his eyes...

It makes you want to just listen.

I suppose this blog title is fairly accurate, though. It was simply based off of a favorite computer game's name (Amnesia: The Dark Descent), but...

I'm scared of how things are changing. I don't want to have such a closed mind.

I'm scared of how I might change after Session.